Goals in Life

During college years, I've set some goals for myself which I didn't achieve back then.
I believe in timing, luck and opportunities.

Today, I would like to believe I have achieve some of those little goals I've set for myself way way way before. although I've achieved it late.. but I guess better late than never :)

So many things happened the past few months, weeks, etc. I don't know how to explain but I would just like to think that it's a journey.

*sigh*

I'm tired but can't sleep. I feel like I'm worried about a lot of things. :(

I have a long list of things to do... and even longer list of things I Want to do. and probably even longer list of things I wanna achieve! But I dunno anymore :(

Not Like the Movies – KC Concepcion Music Code and Lyrics Code

I’m your average dreamer, I’m a true escapist
Always expecting a happy ending
Maybe I’ve been watching too many movies

Maybe I should grow up and start pretending
When I saw your face thou, everything was slow mo
And I started wondering why..?…

Why can’t it be?
Just a pathway full of roses
Leading to a sunset view
With the one you’ve always dreamt of greats

Why can’t it be?
It was like a movie scene, the way I felt for you
Only you didn’t fall, now it’s not like the movies at all
(…not like the movies at all..)

Should I kept my heart charged
Should have been more patient
Should I kept deny on my addiction

What was I expecting
Did I have a vision of a scene
That only lived in fiction

Now I know that you are not gonna be my co-star?
And it starts to wonder why..

Not Like the Movies – KC Concepcion Music Code

1) try laser tag - supposed to do today but i wasn't able to go:(
2) ocean park (even if i've been there more or less 3 times already.
3) try different restaurants on my list!
4) watch a movie
5) play bowling again, (not on wii! hehe!)
6) watch the stars
7) go to pet express moa!
8) travel outside metro manila

hay...

almost all my life...

i have been doing what other people like me to do. not what i like to do. why? sometimes, it makes me happy because i love those other people. but then again when i think about it. does it really make me happy? especially that they feel like it's what you want?

I have a lot of dreams in my life but then again, I am sure not all will be done in this lifetime. But as much as I try to do what I want, most of the time I can't coz the people around me whom I love sometimes wants me to do otherwise.

Broken promises, taken for granted, and it's my fault again.. over and over again..

some people have it easy. they get everything they want without any guilt even if there's a gray area or done in bad faith. but then again, i believe in karma. one day... i'll say one day...

I am so tired. everything I do, it's for them. and yet, if I make one single mistake or I get fed up it's magnified to a big shit.

oh well tiis tiis. well that's all i can do for now naman :(

karma

super tired this week had lots of thing to do and still undone. energy levels are going down. but the reason for my blog today I guess is called karma.

I always felt like it's unfair but now I try to just let it go and tell myself, someday, they'll get their own karma for all the dishonesty, selfishness and manipulation of all those people.

Anyways, enough about that. what would be better for you? good workplace or better work location? if it were only easy then I'd say most definitely good workplace but then again, life is just not about me. It also involves my family. But we'll see soon. All these great people in my workplace makes me happy and content in a way that even if I didn't get to do what I truly love which is retail marketing in a big company, I'm content with the way it is right now.

Lord, Thank you. All your tests have a reason. I know all these makes me a stronger and better person. Happy weekend everyone!

back from hiatus

Guess what, it's been a rollercoaster ride eversince I've last blogged!

I now have a job (after taking so much time thinking selecting, I ended up with something complicated but then again, I believe that things happen for a reason and there's a reason for this!)

I now have a part-time/sideline/biz on the side at the same time. who would have thought that when things are low, everything is on the low side but when things start to catch up with all the lax time i got it would be doubled! But then again, I really find it's a blessing to have this. Something I love to do and maybe I just got what I asked for :) Probably just a little more to achieve my dreams! :)

It's really been a while since I last updated this but hopefully when i get the extra time I will surely update this and change the layout as well! I really find black backgrounds a little umay already! :)

Oh, by the way, I tried letting go of something that fills in negative energy. why? It seems like what my gut feel is right and confirmed. :p Good Riddance!

I know what my passion is. Quarter life crisis is really a stage in life where you feel lost but to combat it is to try new things! or try doing something you don't like and you will know what you like :P


Supposed to go on a trip but will not push thru, but it's okay :) I'm so missing a lot of things eversince I started work, but I think this is for the best. I'd rather be someone useful/independent :)


For my friends who still await the posts in my blog, kindly pray that I do pass my certifications on the first take! hehe! Thanks! :) byebye for now! :)

Guess what?

I can now blog using my ipod:) expect more updates from me then :)


I can finally say ipod is <3

busy-ness!

I'm too busy too blog lately but I really need to update this. New layout hopefully coming soon!:)

Anyways, in probably a week's time, I will be on my second or third job. I think I should say it's my third job and it's my second company:) Since so little time is left, I wanted to finish everything in my list below so that when I start work, everything will be in order:)

1) GP List (expenses etc) DOB etc!
2) My Doggie in car sign!:D
3) Cosmopawlitan's site
4) Paws N' Fins site updates
5) Employment requirements
6) Xerox of important documents
7) weekend stints
8) Shopping!
9) and a whole lot more....

it's lists and more lists! But I have to say that the past 2 weeks have been extra fruitful and busy!:)

I also plan to change my blog's layout to a simpler style and hopefully, I will be able to blog about my fabulous finds:D


Ta-ta for now!:) Hello again, corporate world but this time, I'd surely do my extra stints!:)

Randoms

I just wanted to pour out these useless thoughts and get it over with and get back to work! I still have so many things to do but these useless and annoying thoughts keep bugging me!

I forgot where or whose status in facebook I saw this message but I think it's good and at least it makes sense!

"I don't wish for them to die. but if they do, I hope they burn in hell"

well something like that. To all those people who are plastic, user, liars, etc. THAT "quote" is for you!

I know, I sound like as if I'm filled with hatred inside. But so what, for those people who abuse other people and just used them for their own personal gain or whatsoever that is for you!

There, I feel so much better! I can now get back to my work! whee~

Lists, Lists and more Lists!!!!

List #1 - Things to do

1) Download and install Itunes
2) Dock my Ipod and Put Classical Music
3) Organize my Files
4) Delete Unnecessary Files
5) Back them up on a CD
6) Organize my stuff
7) Organize my E-mail
8) Clean up Facebook Invites
9) Clean up unused Apps
10) Update Phonebook and consolidate information to my phone:)
11) Do the Errands and Chores
12) Get my backpay
13) Exhaust all old blank Cds, Dvds
14) Organize Wii games
15) Organize my books and wrap them in plastic
16) Look for a nice Card holder
17) and more and MORE!

LIST #2 - Things to accomplish/achieve within the first quarter of the year!

1) Change Blog Layout
2) Change PawsandFins layout
3) Change Plurk Layout
4) Change my Multiply site's Layout
5) Read a book
6) Learn at least 2 Piano Pieces (I think I already finished one)
7) Read at least 2 Magazines
8) Try to get into the habit of playing Wii Fit at least three times a week (for the first quarter)
9) Recheck my Video Collection


LIST #3 - Some Goals for the year 2010!

1) Make a sideline / main line:)) haha joke!
2) Drive at least 100kms
3) Study new piano pieces and practice my skills
4) read books (hopefully at least 1 each quarter)
5) read magazines (hopefully 2 each quarter)
6) Organize organize organize
7) Fix my lappie!
8) Self-Study /Review Nihongo
9) More to come:P

Holiday Season!

I would want to post a personalized holiday picture card but then again, my lappie is broken and i don't wanna install photoshop here:)

Advance Merry Christmas Everyone!


Oh, I also need to revise the layout of my blog! will probably revise it when I get back from my vacation and while still looking for new work!:)


well, the reason why I'm blogging after on hiatus for a long time now, I've been thinking of doing something new with my blog. and aside from that is I was supposed to pour out my thoughts about the recent happenings but I decided na it's not the right time for now :D

Well, recently, I feel like no matter how hard I work, they will never be satisfied. Well then again, a lot of people never find contentment. another realization is that most people don't care what you think or what happens to you. what they care about is themselves only. they would always want to be "ung nakakalamang". sometimes I feel like I won't live long because of this.

anyways! enough about that! Happy Holidays everyone! I hope things get back to normal and get better next year.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!

My Current Wishlist

Well, since I wanted to place goals on what to buy instead of being an impulsive buyer so here's my list!:)

1) FitFlops (Shakoha Boot by Anna Sui)
2) E63 / E71 / E75 / or just a new phone that has wifi
3) New Lappie since the one I have now is sinusumpong!

Well, I guess that's it for now. I will buy number 2 hopefully before christmas! wish me luck! :) I hope I could sell off the old phones for a good price (I bet hindi!) and hopefully I could decide which one na!:)

Why?

why do I think of you? I always wonder if it's true. I hope to hear the truth soon!

Anyways,

I really wanted to watch 500 days of Summer! I am a Joseph Gordon-Levitt fan eversince his Ten Things I Hate About You movie! I can't wait to watch it! Hopefully sa saturday na!!!! :)

and Again..

My body clock is a total wreck. When I was working, I make sure I'd be asleep by 11 or 12. Now that I'm enjoying my break, my body clock is messed up.

and Another...

Not everyone has this opportunity that I have right now. I must work harder to accomplish it. Inspiration, where art thou?

Not everyone is given this chance or special things, why do I feel unsure whenever they spend a lot for me? Why do other people have the "kapal ng mukha" to just receive and receive and still do bad deeds and making them look good in front of others but they're bad deep inside?

I still have a lot to learn. to discover. to accept in order to survive.

Goodnighties World!

Nintendo DS Game: My Sims Party

I have always loved the Sims games! With the new Sims, I tried it on my DS and viola!!! It was full of mini-games which i really like! It's sort of like Mario Party without the board. I tried the Single player and finished all the festivals. I loved it! But it really makes it more exciting with more players playing for the win!

Cute factor is still great! Characters are still cute and adorable! From Gino, the chef, to Rosalyn, the mayor. Each and every character was given a role!


One of the Mini Games. The fossil search. In this mini game you must carefully dig for the dust and blow them to clear the fossils!




In this mini-game, you must mix the right solutions and shake it correctly to achieve the desired output. Watch for which direction you should shake the flask!


One of the mini-games that I liked! You must twirl your fork CAREFULLY to get the spaghetti and click on the eat button to let your character eat it. The first one to finish the plate gets to have the most points! This is really challenging and super fun!



Who said soft serve ice creams are just in one color? This mini game is basic in the sense that you should give what your customers want or ELSE! hehe:)

There are still lots of mini-games that are super nice and cute. Try it and enjoy the game!

Just wanna share...

The Lord's prescription:

Every Morning
Take a full glass of gratitude.

When getting to work
Take 1 Tablespoon of peace.

Every hour,
Take 1 pill of patience and 1 glass of humility

When getting home
Take one dose of love.

Before bedtime
Take 2 capsules of clear conscience.

Ironies

got this thru SMS:D Just wanna share:)

1) gud guys go crazy over easy girls

2) gud girls are taken by ungrateful guys

3) d most loyal are those being cheated on

4) cheaters are begged by the good ones to stay

5) the most worthy of good relationships are the ones that aren't taken seriously

6) those greatly hurt by their greatest love end up being players

7) opportunities for relationships come when you least expect it

8) when your ready and wanting someone, chance never presents itself.

Are Pianists Smarter?

Reposted from Laarni's Multiply

ARE PIANISTS SMARTER?
A group of scientists believe they are. A study conducted in Germany on two groups; one of non-musicians and another of pianists, pitted the two groups against each other in a series of challenges.

The two groups were asked to perform sequences of complex finger exercises or movements. While the exercises were being performed the participants were hooked up to a MRI (magnetic resonance imaging) machine. The machine was attached to the participant's heads to measure brain response.

What the scientists found was surprising. Both groups could perform the activities with the same amount of success. However the MRI report showed very different brain responses in the two groups. Simply speaking the pianists could complete the exercises correctly with less brain activation than the group of non-musicians.

From this we can see that piano player's brains are more efficient. This is further evidence that learning a musical instrument can enhance your brain function.


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Well, what do you think? Being a pianist myself would like to think this is true and applicable in my life but then again, this might be not true:) hehe!

Fireflies

I like the song I dunno why but it kinda reminds me of Ultra songs. (lyrics are from metrolyrics.com)


Fireflies
Owl City


You would not believe your eyes,
If ten million fireflies.
Lit up the world as I fell asleep.
'Cause they fill the open air,
And leave teardrops everywhere.
You think me rude,
But I would just stand and stare.

I'd like to make myself believe,
That Planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
'Cause everything is never as it seems.

'Cause I get a thousand hugs,
From ten thousand lightening bugs.
As they try to teach me how to dance,
A foxtrot above my head,
A sockhop beneath my bed.
The disco ball is just hanging by a thread (thread, thread).

I'd like to make myself believe,
That Planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
'Cause everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep).

Leave my door open just a crack (please take me away from here),
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac (please take me away from here).
Why do I tire of counting sheep? (please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep.

To ten million fireflies,
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes.
I got misty eyes as they said farewell (said farewell),
But I know where several are.
If my dreams get real bizarre,
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar.

I'd like to make myself believe,
That Planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
'Cause everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep).

I'd like to make myself believe,
That Planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
'Cause everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep).

I'd like to make myself believe,
That Planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams.

The Supposedly Mid-Year Report!

This is long overdue. But then again, I'm TOO busy to blog the past few weeks if you know:)

Here are the goals I have done at the start of the year! and my comments/report below each goal! :)

1) Blog at least 3 times a week.
----- I was able to do it before I got hired... Due to the many events that happened the last few months it wasn't 3 times a week. But hey, I'm making bawi anyways:)

2) Use my planner to the fullest.
----- I think I did! I listed down all my expenses and all things that I needed to remember (well most of the time anyway)

3) Format my laptop this year. (At least learn how!)
----- Guess what! I just did! Just few days ago.


4) Drive at least 50 kilometers by the end of the year (I hope they let me drive though)
------ This is already way way accomplished. I counted my drive from our new home to work. 15 kilometers one way and 30 kilometers roundtrip. and besides, even before moving here I think I already accomplished that:) I'll try to count my mileage haha! I'm thinking I might be nearing the 500kms mark. what do you think?:D YAY!



5) SAVE, SAVE, SAVE (actually, I'm being super practical and thrifty lately... which is a good sign!)
------ Yeah, Whatever I saved during BUM days are spent during employment days. Well, I did spend on a lot of things though:) I'll be back being a bum soon so I'm pretty sure that I'd be back on saving again!


6) Read books at least one book a month (I hope d na sumakit ulo ko, kakainis labo kasi mata ko)
--- Well, I need to make bawi on this! I finished one book already and halfway on the next one.

7) Take more pictures (more memories!)
---- Apparently, I failed at this one. After so many eventful happenings at my work, I fail to capture them on film. Seeing Jericho Rosales, Vicky Belo and Jollibee at my work! haha! Whee~

8) Finish Cooking Mama! haha:D joke lang! HmmMmMm! I'll think about it.
---- Obviously, I Wasn't able to finish this yet. I'm such a perfectionist when it comes to some stuff. i wanted all gold medals in all recipes. so... i guess that's it!

Yay? I think I accomplished at least 50%! well. the rest will be for next yr! Just kidding!


Anyways, why am I still awake at 2:22am? I just finished some work-related stuff. It's really better for me to work at this hour/time. I work fast (well as long as I'm not sleepy) and it's holiday tomorrow! Whee~ The rare holidays we don't have work should be celebrated!

Gotta go~! I still need to wake up early tomorrow to do some grocery shopping!

~Tammy~